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Current Music:range life//pavement
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Time:11:30 am
Current Mood:workingworking
nothing much to really update on...

i've been consistently happy for a long period of time (for the first time in my life) so that's not really new news at all. there's nothing much to say, yet, at the same time there's so much i could never share it with an internet journal. my eyes are wide open and i'm still in love. is this possible? it must be. plans for the future are in the works and i'm not going to let this newly-elected piece of shit president get me down. i went out dancing with some friends on friday and then went to go visit a friend in jail on sunday---seeing two opposite sides of the spectrum in my life co-exist like that is really surreal, and beautiful in a way.

we'll move away. a year will go by in a heartbeat...
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Current Music:range life//pavement
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Time:11:30 am
Current Mood:workingworking
nothing much to really update on...

i've been consistently happy for a long period of time (for the first time in my life) so that's not really new news at all. there's nothing much to say, yet, at the same time there's so much i could never share it with an internet journal. my eyes are wide open and i'm still in love. is this possible? it must be. plans for the future are in the works and i'm not going to let this newly-elected piece of shit president get me down. i went out dancing with some friends on friday and then went to go visit a friend in jail on sunday---seeing two opposite sides of the spectrum in my life co-exist like that is really surreal, and beautiful in a way.

we'll move away. a year will go by in a heartbeat...
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Current Music:tres//pinback
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Subject:waiting to sink
Time:04:41 pm
Current Mood:ecstaticecstatic
things are so fucking perfect right now it's frightening.

-school is here again and so far my classes are good.

-i just received news that the new 2nd job i have is paying me $15 dollars an hour!!!!!
omg *please hire me permanently:)*

-my mom & i now have a place to live.

-i joined a gym this morning(haha what a queer!)& i am SO ready to not be a fatty without the help of drugs.

-in 18more days i will have managed what i thought i could never do again and will get to enjoy knowing that i've been with the same person for 1year, drama free(iloveyou.)

-i got to say goodbye to chelsea like i thought i'd never get to do. i'll miss you jehovah chelsea.<3 have fun in boston for 4yrs.


it's all right now
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Current Music:he's simple, he's dumb, he's the pilot//grandaddy
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Subject:sf<3
Time:08:47 am
Current Mood:restlessrestless
life is so much better in san francisco.
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Current Music:sal's happy birthday song
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Subject:"vee did i poop on your party?"
Time:11:11 pm
Current Mood:highhigh
happy birthday sal<3

sal, nana, erica, eric, jeff, marji, chester, kristen,
i love you all.

& not just because i'm stoned...

ok maybe a little.
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Current Music:isobel//bjork
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Time:07:28 am
Current Mood:anxiousanxious
saturday was the film festival at the house of brews.
left early and hung out with
&

these boys are awesome. spent most of the night playing video games at andrew's and watching short films.

richard came over sunday and we spent all day in my room being hermits. it's so much fun doing almost absolutely nothing. we napped, talked, played with bella, watched television, fixed my computer...i dunno, we're weird. sometimes i just really hate being around people.

the sun nearly killed me today after work.
i can't wait for san francisco and i can't wait for winter because i can't take anymore of this goddamn heat.
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Current Music:the smiths
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Time:08:32 am
Current Mood:exhaustedexhausted
i just got home from nana's house because i couldn't make it any further after last night.

the plan was to go to magic, her & i, but for some reason we decided on robot tattoos. <3 i love it and as soon as i can get someone to take a picture of it, i'll post it up.

after that we got ready & went to the mns show...except they had already played. i went because alex asked me to go but he disappeared so we stayed a awhile talking to two greaser girls & left.

called marji & decided to head over to burbank where she was house sitting. jeffy, nana, chester, marji & i sat out back and smoked some girl's hookah. after dana, stephanie, & melly left we went to hollywood for jeff's friends birthday party.

that party was the fuckin weirdest, shadiest thing i have ever been to. watched this guy's "music video" which in all actuality was a soft-core porn. started drinking and got pretty shit faced. it was so fucking hot in that apartment so we went into the air-conditioned bedroom that was really huge & everyone was in. me, marjorie, & nana sat on the bed till some guy gropped marji's ass. we all hung out on the opposite side of the room in the corner drinking and talking to our new gay psych. that was giving us advice. we would've all had fun except for marji's stupid friend who was inebriated beyond belief. we hung out for a long while & had a good time; but after realizing that people were gang banging across the room from us and we couldn't find that girl, we decided to leave. new sergio was awesome & totally helped this dumb girl out. finally found her locked up in the bathroom with some guy. tried to get her back to the car. nana & i wanted to beat the shit out of her. maybe then she would've stopped being so stupid & easy and stopped being such a bitch to marjorie who was trying so hard to help her out. whatever. it was ghay, but i had fun with my friends anyway. went back to out cars, took kristen home. went to take nana home and some how ended up staying on her couch.

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Current Music:somebody to love//queen
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Subject:<3
Time:03:44 am
Current Mood:thankfulthankful
well she's gone. i just got back from taking my mom to the flyaway on her little vacation to her little secret location that no one's supposed to know about but me.
and i'm happy for her, because she's never done anything like this in her life before...which is strange to me. i had this sort of experience when i was 15..16? i can't remember. so even though i am not too happy (since it puts me in positions i'd rather not be in) i'm happy for her, because i know it's something she needs to do in life. how strange to be so sheltered for 40+ years of your life. and even though i look at my mom and think she is so smart & knows so much about so many different things, i guess i just now realize that she, in fact, doesn't know about a whole world of OTHER things. and i figure, that maybe this is why i'm so insistant on going, doing, being, seeing...experiencing as much as i can while i'm still alive. i mean, i could be content in my surroundings, but i like knowing that other surroundings exist, and that i have in fact been there & have the option of going there whenever i'd like. and so i'm nervous, for when she gets back. i'm nervous for tests results & change. i mean it could end up being nothing...but then again it could end up being a huge something. and then i'll have to be faced with all of this and somehow figure out how to deal with it all pretty much on my own. no dad, no brothers or sisters, no family. but i guess dilemmas, problems, struggles, whatever...never come at a good time in life. so it's just inevitable; if not this struggle, it'll be another. so no matter what we find out when she gets back, i think it's a good thing she went. i think she'll come back a whole new person. a person that's ready to take on divorces and breast cancer and financial problems and shitty days at work and a crazy daughter and headaches and car trouble and whatever else might get in the way of her enjoying her life. and so i feel lucky that she gave me this insight, this way of seeing the world, that not very many people my age have...and i think it'll be nice that she'll finally be able to see the same things she's been teaching me to see my whole life.
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Current Music:blur
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Subject:'cos youre so great & i love you
Time:04:35 pm
Current Mood:sleepysleepy
my boyfriend bought me a dipstick for our 10month anniversary.
ahahaha.
he really did!
now the oil sensor thingy in my car doesn't beep anymore.
beep.<3

i went over his house & his mom made us dinner.
we watched cheesy novelas in the kitchen & ate together.
yumm.
then we layed down & listened to mogwai.

i love driving home alone late at night.
i take the streets and everything is empty.
tons of lights and no one out to see it.
it's great.

oh,
& nana's boobs are mad at me.
i'm sorry:(
i can take you bra shopping if you still want.
better late than never.
don't be mad at me.
my boobs still love your boobs.
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Current Music:comerzon//pastilla
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Time:12:42 am
Current Mood:tiredtired
so anyway, i got to spend some time with sal on monday. (sorry alex!) he played me my song that he had worked on for like a year. i loved it. harmonica & acoustic--very wilco-y of course. i felt bad 'cos he was all fidgety and nervous, but yeah, it was well worth the wait. :)

tuesday richard & i ate pizza together and i registered for fall semester. he was sleepy and i wasn't, so i decided to call nana. her & i took him home & went to go see ANCHORMAN. funniest shit ever, i think we laughed the hardest in that nearly empty theatre.

hopefully her & roy can go with us to sf.

i'm so bitter, everyone at work is going on vacation...so i have to stay there & cover for them and have to hold off on my vacation for a whole month. blah. i hate you vicky.

chris is gone, i didn't get to say goodbye.
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